Since I last blogged so much has happened...the days keep slipping away faster and faster...I look at my son and everyday that I look at him I am reminded of the beginning. I found out I was pregnant days before Aaliyah Houghton was taken too soon from us.
I then woke up one Thursday morning in April 2002 (9 months later on the 25th) feeling contractions as I put my foot on the floor. A friend, Theo Von Hoffman, had shared that I would feel it in my back first and I did. I proceeded to shower and dress for an appointment to take my "belly" pictures with a photographer friend anyway. I could not predict the future, but in the event I had no other children; I wanted proof that I carried Ali Daniel Kiel for 9 months and thanks be to God delivered him safely into the world.
Thursday, June 19th, 2008 he graduated from Kindergarden and I sent text messages all over the place with picture attached ...."We Made It !" I was reminded of Hezekiah Walker and the Love Fellowship Choir Live at Radio City and the declarative opening song of that CD "We Made It" recorded shortly after the Towers fell...."so tell Bin Laaaaaadin, we made it!", Hezekiah sings with all power.I was in the early very depressing stages of my pregnancy when the towers fell. In all frankness, I felt like my own towers had fallen...I could list all of the drama from having lost a good job trying to help a "baby daddy" who had more than shown his sorry a-- true colors to more grave errors in judgement about my life as I knew it. My world felt dim and the future appeared even dimmer to me.
"I had to keep the baby", I thought. Would it be the END of everything I dreamed of ? Everything I road a one way USAIR flight from New York on February 12th, 1997 to Los Angeles, CA for ?
There were these reflections and thousands more...but what I now know for sure is that I can't think of much I would trade this journey for....I have a son who knows that "zebras are herbivores, they eat plants" and wants to know "what kind of Car God is driving" and "what kind of toothpaste God uses", as well...
I wish there had been MUCH less heartache, but bitter times make the good times EVEN SWEETER!!
Over the last 6 years I have journaled in notebooks and on the computer. I have also recorded audio diaries in an attempt to capture this journey for my own digestion and maybe to share with anyone else who has a testimony and can wave a handkerchief in the air. The first volume is coming....but keep reading this blog until ....
From the day I saw that blue line ZOOM across that very small space alerting me that Ali was coming to hard days like today when he longs for the attention of a father who simply will not deliver, all I can say is ...we made it and we continue....
For Ali Kiel however ...the best is still yet to come ......
Remember change is now....and it begins with you
dk
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