Been A Minute...Let's Talk About L-O-V-E

I U


Love they say "is a many splendored (or 'splendid' or 'splintered' ..it feels splintered at times, right ?) thing". Whichever the term ...I am not sure if Love is always felicitous and it for me it has been sharp and painful. Love to me is also a passionate beast or a beast of passion. It can whoop your ass (not literally, domestic violence is NOT love) and it can make love to you gently. It is energetic, lethargic, eclectic and tricky. Love "got game" and has swagger. Love is safe and at other times capricious.

As well, it is like the "Life" Langston Hughes describes from a Mother to a son "(love) ain't been no crystal stair. It's had tacks in it, And splinters, And boards torn up, And places with no carpet on the floor-Bare. But all the time I'se been a-climbin, And reachin' landin's, And turnin corners, And sometimes goin' in the dark. Where there ain't been no light."Did y'all feel that...over there ? It's has been dark, that's for sure." (Can I preach like I feel it :-)

Today I had to grapple with the notion of being lonely and without LOVE...I of course mean Eros...not AGAPE...Mother/Father God showers me everyday by breathing the breath of life into Ali and myself, I am Loved by my creator and I give Love. I am also blessed beyond measure.




But...yes there is the "but"- I am admittedly lonely and creating a world is not my option. For the record I tried and it was some mess. Today as I turned my back on my class ENG 668 Genre "Horror" and shifted my focus back to "whatever I am supposed to be shifting my focus back to" (since my next Graduate class doesn't begin until July 6), evidence pointed squarely to the fact that I am without a mate, boyfriend, "special friend", "friend" or even a "booty call". There is no one. There is only the dream of someone. There are only the ghosts of "First Love's" past. There are only the crushes that look, sound and act like the ghosts of "First Loves" past. There are only the recollections of what Faith Evans branded "Caramel Kisses".



I gave myself permission to ride the "moment", but I thought I might share this with anyone who might know something about it. Jimmy Ruffin asked, "What becomes of the brokenhearted ?" I am not sure so I wait...but of these ghosts...Erykah's song best captured my thoughts as I tearlessly reflected upon the predicament in which I find myself...I don't offer an mp3 because she is (like all of her records) saying something here and I wouldn't want anyone who needs this to miss it. (The chorus is bolded because somebody needs this word and if anybody has a jar of Holy Water...can we share ?)




Erykah Badu..."I Want You" (Worldwide Underground EP)
REPEAT 4x's (begining)1st part

I I I I I I I
WANT YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU
OOH I
I I I I I I
WANT YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU

so what we gone do
what we gone do
what we gonna do

2nd part

in the worse kinda way way way way way way way
i want youuuu (baby)
so what we gone dooooo (baby)
so what we gone do (baby)

CHORUS
love is on the way
all I got to say
is It wont let go
you can pray to early May
fast for 30 days
still It wont let go
got a good book and got all in it
tried a little yoga for a minute
but it wont let go (oooh)
tried to turn the sauna up to hotter
drank a whole jar of holy water
but it wont let go

begining

and in the worse kinda way way way way way way way
i want you
so what we gone do
what we gone do

beginning

Hook:

and in the worse kinda way
i want you
so what we gone doooo
now what we gone do
i know you're a little nervous
(what we gone do)
i know you really want this
(what we gone do)
i cant believe i feel it
(what we gone do)
i feel it all over , feel it all over
(said what we gone do)
babe,yeah baby
(so what we gone do)
you don't believe in love
you missing a good thing
(so what we gone do)
because im genuine
im genuine
(so what we gone do)
yeah baby

Bridge:repeat 2x's

i dont want no trouble
just alittle loving (yeah)
i want to get to know ya (yeah)
i dont want your money (yeah)
you oughta get to know me (yeah)
my love a make you wonder (yeah)
and lightning a thunder (yeah)
i get from my mama (yeah)

and i
i want you
and i
i want you
and i
i want you....

Begining (1st part again)